- Rest Day Motivation -
"Life was so much easier when I ran five miles every day.
I never had a time in mind that I wanted to beat. I never had a goal, other than to finish up and get to work (short term) and feel more comfortable in my jeans (long term). I never competed with, or even thought about, other people.
Well, that last one's not completely true. My husband will attest that every time I spotted someone ahead of me on the trail, whether they were jogging or just standing there or sometimes not even a real person (telephone poles can be very lifelike!), I would instinctively and unconsciously speed up. My desire to win at everything is as innate as my blue eyes and frizzy hair.
Be that as it may, in my former fitness life, there were few opportunities to "win" anything. There was just...getting a workout. Going for a run = successful day = pleased with self. Case closed.
So that's why CrossFit has mind-[bleeped] me a bit. I find myself asking after every WOD, "Did you push hard enough?"
I don't know how to answer. I don't know if it's possible to answer. How does an athlete know if/when he/she has left it all on the field/court/mat/whatever?
In CrossFit, as in other sports, you're competing against others while also competing against yourself. There's always a fine line between "could've given more" and "did my very best."
Do any of us know what our very best is?
At the end of every class, the coach posts individual results (times, weights used) on the whiteboard at the front of the room. At the end of the day, he posts a picture of everyone's results on the website. I check the website and compare my time with the others who did the WOD that day.
I hardly ever "win."
It might seem silly, but I get frustrated by that. To me, that means I didn't do well enough -- no matter the circumstances. It means I'm not good enough. I can honestly say that I finish each WOD lying on the floor gasping for breath and dripping with sweat. But does that really mean I performed to my ultimate capability? What about all those times I let the bar or the wall ball fall to the ground and sneaked a few seconds' rest before continuing on? What about all those times I noticed my stomach churning and slowed down? Should I, could I, have held on, ignored the pain and kept moving?
Or is what I accomplished truly all I could have accomplished on that particular day?
Do any of you have this issue, or am I completely insane?
Well, if you weren't a little nutty before, you most likely are now. I just threw a crapload of unanswerable questions in your face. I just described one of the greatest human struggles -- the quest to reach our God-given potential -- in a fitness blog and expected to reach a resolution.
Maybe this is as close as any of us can get: asking questions and struggling with issues means we care about becoming better at whatever it is we do, and that's much more productive than living in our own complacent little bubbles.
It's definitely more productive than chasing telephone poles."
Think a little about your goals, have you made any yet? If so, have they changed over the past few months? We'll be updating our goal board so be ready to throw something up. Cheers.